Disorder.

I kid you not. I have accumulated so much that I am crashing. I no longer can prioritize what is important and what is not. Just when I think I have got it, bits and pieces scatter like ants. I have this unstable mind and this lethargic way of living. I do hope that I can start organizing my thoughts. I find difficult what once was too simple. I was risky and quick. I didn't doubt myself. I acted because I believed I knew. Now, I rethink it. I stop. I pause. I stutter. I shake my head and I get it all wrong. I become all wrong. So wrong.

                           I have to change.